I don't want to date anymore.
I think I'm done for awhile.
I know that is a weird beginning for a blog about dating but as cliche as it is, sometimes you have to begin with an ending. I actually like the excitement of a first date, but I hate the anticipation after it.
Will there be a second date? Did she like me? Did she find me attractive? Was I funny?
All those same, generic questions that float through your mind when he first is over and leading up to either a second date or the often inevitable "Let's just be friends" brush off. I despise dating for that line, or any of it's infinite variations. You don't want to be friends, ladies, why do you lie? Why do you think that is soooo much better than,"Hey I had a good time but you're not really what I'm looking for." That would be so much more respectable. No false hope. Blunt. Ideal.
So, yeah, I don't want to do that anymore, at least, not for now. I'm told that time alone is always good. That building up on oneself is a great way to...blah...blah...blah...
Fuck that.
I know I've got issues, like everyone. Being "alone" hasn't solved shit in my life anymore than dating or being in relationships has. No I want to be alone because I'm just tired of playing the dating game. Strike that! I don't even want to be alone and i certainly don't want to be single. I just want what is best for me.
Yeah!
That actually sounds perfect! I want what is best for yours truly until...uhm... forever! Right now dating is more stress (and capital) than it's worth, so yeah, that's out. Sure I can build on myself like emotional lego blocks, OR, I can actually get out and do something!
So this blog is going to be part of my proactive approach to dating, self improvement, sex, and oh I don't know... the presidential election.
*Shakes head*
That'll do for now.
